Archive for August, 2010
Is your life everything you want it to be? Are you as happy, as successful as you want to be? Or is something missing? Are you spinning your wheels, immobilized by problems, frustrated, fed up? Lost your enthusiasm, your joy, your confidence? Sometimes life is a downhill slide in the mud. I have come to believe when I get the dirty end of the stick, it’s time for me to grow again. Not always the most pleasant experience in the world, but I’ve learned it teaches me how to create more of what I want in my life. Growing has become the only way for me to resolve my pain.
Personal growth is vital to our health and happiness. We need to be constantly evolving. We are not meant to settle, to stop where we are. When we stop growing, we get sick and unhappy. Let me tell you how personal growth has been essential to my happiness.
When I was a little kid, I was so happy to be alive, so enthusiastic about everything, so enchanted with the world. And then came, inevitably, life experiences that gradually shut me down. Over time, my enthusiasm dwindled, my joy quotient decreased, my attitude lost altitude, and I began to live in a perpetual state of stress. I ran into huge roadblocks and spent years hiding in the safety of blaming other people for my unhappiness.
At the same time, I had a passion for exploring human potential which, in the beginning, expressed itself as fascination with psychic ability. I read lots of books, and my high school girlfriends and I held séances and talked about ghosts and related phenomena at sleepovers. Even so, I kept my interest below the radar, since people were pretty touchy about that sort of thing. I ended up putting my passion on the back burner and focusing on the business of everyday living.
Eventually, I became so unhappy I began to have anxiety attacks and sought professional counseling. It was a scary and wonderful experience. I gained more self-awareness, learned coping skills, and had no more anxiety attacks. But there was still something missing. What I didn’t realize at the time was that I was searching for myself. I wanted me back.
I continued to pursue my interest in human potential, which now included psychology in addition to metaphysics. Gradually I found the teachers who helped me transform my life. I gained a sense of direction and learned how to develop my passion for human potential into a career in which I could help others. I continued my own personal development through spiritual practice.
During my journey, I found it was pain that kept me moving toward personal transformation. Every time I paused on my path of enlightenment, my pain would eventually force me to take the next step. Gradually I took responsibility for my life, dropped the blame game, and began to create the life I had always wanted. I was empowered. Yowza! I discovered that I love to share what I learn. Yes!
I think there are many people who can identify with my story. We wander off our path and experience pain. We run from the pain until we can’t run anymore. My life changed when I decided to confront my pain.
One of the most helpful tools for personal growth I discovered was Chaldean numerology. I was amazed when I read my Chaldean Soul Chart to see my life right there in black and white. This chart told me so much about myself. It told me why I am the way I am, it showed me my life purpose, it gave me a blueprint for my direction, it showed me the potential in my future, that it’s OK to have challenges, and it revealed my talents and strengths. What could be better? Much of what I saw was confirmed by awareness I had had since childhood. I was excited again. My Chaldean Soul Chart showed me what I was meant to do with my life. It showed me the way to happiness and fulfillment. It gave me my identity back.
If you can relate to even a small part of my experience, I highly recommend you get your hands on your Chaldean Soul Chart. I would be happy to create it for you. Email me for the details. You will be amazed to learn how powerful you are.
- Anxiety: How To Change Your Response (beliefnet.com)
- Don’t Underestimate the Value of Life’s Little (and not-so little) Crises (psychologytoday.com)
- Relationships: Dealing with The Void When It’s Over (socyberty.com)
Eleanor was a New Age woman of the Middle Ages. She was Queen of France and England (by marriage), she bore 10 children, and she was Dutchess of Aquitaine in her own right. She was a patron of the arts, she pioneered chivalry, and she went on 2 or 3 crusades, just for starters. I like her because she was a rebel – she exercised her power in a male-dominated world. She went hunting and rode astride with the guys, and she shared her opinions freely. After her divorce from the King of France (which she instigated), she took up with any man she had a fancy for and ended up with the future King of England, 11 years her junior. She married off each of her 5 daughters to royalty, and two of her sons were kings of England. She knew who she was.