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You Are More Than You Think You Are

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Cycles – Unfinished Business

Unfinished Business occurs when you have ignored a Challenge lesson you selected in a previous lifetime. We have free will, so we can choose to skip a Challenge cycle. However, the decision comes with a price – we still attract the experiences that represent that Challenge, and we will do so until we decide to resolve it.

I have found that very few people come into this life without unfinished business. When I see a chart free of Unfinished Business, I know the person has had a very high level of commitment to spiritual growth. Most people have at least one instance of Unfinished Business on their Chaldean Soul Chart, which can be seen as an additional Challenge in their lives.

When I learned my Unfinished Business number, I saw exactly how it was playing out in my life.

Can you see a trend of Unfinished Business in your life in the following interpretations?

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Interpretations

Number 1:

Indicates in the past a lack of ambition, laziness, dependence on others, fear of standing out in any way, indecisiveness, over-cautiousness, timidity, lack of self respect, and fear of anything new, conditions which are present in your life now.

You can talk a good show, but there is often no action to follow it up. You will not achieve anything without working for it. Success is yours when you develop the courage of your convictions and stand up for yourself while keeping your cool. You need to be the leader.

Number 2:

In the past you were impatient with details, disliked following rules and directions, you were tactless, undisciplined, you lacked direction, lacked self-confidence, were irresponsible with money, and so you have these challenges now.

You may have trouble bonding in intimate relationships. Learn to cooperate with others in order to accomplish anything in this lifetime, and learn to come out of your shell and contribute to the group. Your life is full of details that you must handle. Working with your hands on creative projects can be quite enjoyable.

Number 3:

In a past life, you were afraid to express yourself or promote yourself and your ideas. You had a pessimistic view of life. You lacked imagination and didn’t enjoy life much. You may want to share a great deal with others, but feel you are unable to. You are faced with situations which require you to reveal yourself.

Three is the number of happiness. Learn to express yourself and develop a realistic, optimistic view of life. Learn to be grateful and see the beauty in life. You could take singing or dancing lessons, or join a theater group or public speaking group. Do not paint or draw, as these activities can be isolating, unless you are prepared to have regular exhibitions of your work (social media do not count). Writing can be satisfying if you participate in writer’s groups and read your work in public.

Your creativity, your sense of humor, your friendliness, and anything that brings joy to you will also bring joy to others.

Number 4:

You avoided hard work, discipline, and orderliness in the past, and have challenges with these issues now.

In this life, you need to establish a firm foundation for yourself. Plan your life and work your plan. Stay focused, have patience, practice discipline, be systematic and orderly, and take care of details. Working with your hands could be pleasant for you and would teach you a great deal. Follow through on your responsibilities. Other people will appreciate your dedication, and so will you.

Number 5:

The number 5 is seldom lacking in a person’s name, but if it is lacking in yours, life seems to be a series of changes, new things to adapt to, and emergencies of all kinds. Avoiding these in previous lifetimes magnifies their presence in your life now.

Learn to welcome change and let go of things and relationships that no longer serve you. Interact with and appreciate all kinds of people, adapt to new situations, and handle emergencies responsibly when they come along.

Number 6:

You have avoided responsibility in the past. You were afraid of being tied down, especially to family duties. You avoid helping others because you have been taken advantage of. You never learned the difference between helping someone and taking over. Family members are manipulative, demanding, and unreasonable. You tend to be critical and self-righteous.

You need to learn to set your boundaries and to help people without sacrificing yourself. Learning these important lessons will enable you to enjoy helping others. Remember, you are seeing yourself in others when you criticize. Give yourself a hug and a pat on the back, and love yourself just as you are.

Number 7:

You have been afraid to trust and have faith. In the past, you withdrew and feared taking action when you didn’t know what to expect. You failed to look beyond the obvious for the truth.

Learn to examine all sides of a situation before coming to a conclusion. Develop your inner knowing and your connection to inner guidance, and then trust them to guide you. You need both material and spiritual evidence to guide your life. No more denial or fuzz-ball thinking for you. You are too talented for that.

Number 8:

In the past, you feared having money, possessions, and power. You were careless, showed poor judgment, and didn’t trust your common sense, and these conditions are showing up in your life now.

Learn to develop your organizational and managerial abilities. Delegate opportunity, not responsibility. That is, take responsibility for those tasks you delegate and check up on the delegatees periodically. Always follow up with lawyers, employees, roofers, plumbers, bankers, etc. It’s not that everyone is out to get you, but that you are attracting experiences that force you to pay attention.

Get good advice before investing, and don’t lend money to anybody, no matter how much you want to help. For you, this is good judgment because you don’t get back the money you lend. Be generous in other ways. Learn to love taking good care of yourself and your things, and you can enjoy success. You deserve the best.

You’re Not Really A Computer, but…..

If you think about yourself in computer language, your physical body is the hardware of your life and your soul is the software that drives it. You are hardwired for success with top-quality software, but if that software becomes corrupted with limiting beliefs your brilliant programs start to fail. Your hardware will eventually malfunction if your corrupted software is not cleared of limiting beliefs. So you can see how important it is to take good care of yourself.

Numerology is a science that gives us specific information about ourselves which goes beyond the physical, encompassing the mental, emotional, and spiritual levels as well. I hope you’ve gained insight into your own life by learning about Unfinished Business. All of our challenging experiences are meant to wake us up to our own magnificence.

Next time, the shorter cycles – Personal Years and Personal Months.

What say you?

Your Inner Desire

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Your Spiritual Core – Your Inner Desire

Your Inner Desire number represents your motivation, the inner you, your heart’s desire, what you want more than anything else, and it is fueled by your feelings. I think of it as your ultimate comfort zone. When you are acting from your Inner Desire, you feel a deep sense of security and excitement at the same time. Your world is in harmony and you feel a self-confident sense of belonging.

Interestingly, this is the only part of yourself that you can hide from the world. If you are afraid of what others may think or if you are living someone else’s version of your life, you will keep your Inner Desire bottled up in order to be accepted. If this is you, you can use this as a golden opportunity to start building self-confidence and living a more authentic life by allowing the expression of your Inner Desire.

Here’s how one person found a way to express his Inner Desire number. All his core numbers, except one, represented conservative qualities of responsibility, hard work, consistency, and single-mindedness in achieving his goals. The one exception to these qualities was his Inner Desire number, which was 5. The five in his life gave him the desire for freedom, adventure, change, and risk-taking. His heart’s desire seemed out of alignment with his life and the expectations others had of him.

He found an outlet for this complete contrast in his makeup by driving a sports car and having a career in which he enjoyed enough freedom within the structure of his industry that he was able to maintain his responsibilities without feeling unduly restricted. His ultimate goal was to retire before the age of 50, and his self-discipline enabled him to express his Inner Desire in ways that served his ultimate goal. Once he achieved this goal, his intention was to have even more freedom and adventure in his life by making a second career out of his hobby and taking adventure vacations with his family.

The key to a fulfilling life is being who you truly are deep down in your soul. Numerology helps you discover the message your true Self is carrying for you and guides you on your way to living that message.

Your true Self cannot be suppressed. When it is not expressed consciously, it will emerge negatively in relationship problems, money problems, and health problems. This is the Real You insisting on being recognized. By allowing your true Self to unfold, you are automatically living your Life Purpose.

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Number 1:

You want independence; you like action and accomplishment; and you want to be unique, creative, not one of the crowd. You would rather work alone, but if you must work with others, you want to be in charge. You like to start things, but often get bored before you finish them.

Down side: you can be impatient, bossy, arrogant, conceited, critical, selfish, and outspoken. You tend to put pressure on yourself by holding yourself to impossible standards. You will be more successful if you learn to be diplomatic and tactful.

Number 2:

You are thoughtful, loving, devoted, and loyal; you love the comfort of a nice, soft chair and camaraderie with friends and loved ones. You want peace and harmony more than anything. You are sensitive to the feelings of others and have psychic ability, especially when it comes to knowing how people really feel. You would rather be in the background than at the head of the line. You are contented with the little things and don’t need ambitious dreams to motivate you.

Down side: you tend to let people run over you because you crave peace at any price. You don’t let people know what you want because you think it might inconvenience or displease them. You can be overly emotional, taking everything personally.

Number 3:

You love to express yourself through speaking, writing, or acting. Your goal is to be happy, and you love to make other people happy. You are an optimist and, if you worry, it’s not for long. You are loving, outgoing, and affectionate. You love to entertain, to be entertained, and to have a lot of friends. You are creative, artistic, and you like to be surrounded by beauty.

Down side: you can be a drama king/queen. You are so versatile you can end up scattering your energy in all directions with your fingers in too many pies. Develop tolerance and patience.

Number 4:

Your greatest desire is for structure, steadiness, and routine. You are practical, analytical, reliable, orderly, and methodical. You are loyal and honest, and respect these qualities in others. You like details, and you like to work with your hands. You have self-discipline and are not afraid to discipline others.

Down side: you can be inflexible, stubborn, a perfectionist, impatient with those you perceive as undisciplined or disorganized. You can be narrow-minded, unwilling to change or try something new, even if it’s for the better.

Number 5:

Your greatest desire is for freedom. You like variety, adventure, travel, new places, and new faces. You are versatile, clever, witty, a good mixer. You dislike routine and are not a good candidate for a desk job. You are outgoing and magnetic.

Down side: You can be stubborn when you perceive others trying to limit your freedom.  You waste time by trying to prove you cannot be controlled. Remember, real freedom is living in alignment with your spirit. Excess of all kinds is another stumbling block for you.

Number 6: Your greatest desire is to have love, justice, and harmony in the world. Home, family, and community are vital to you. You are a loyal friend and a devoted family member. You love to counsel others, to advise and guide people through their troubles. You are happiest when someone is in trouble and you can open your door and your heart to them.

Down side: you tend to become emotionally involved in other people’s troubles, worrying about them and creating stress for yourself. You can be stubborn, interfering, and self righteous when it seems others are not taking your advice.

Number 7: You are curious and seek knowledge. You love mystery, and seek to understand the unknown, whether in the field of science or spirituality. You have an inner knowing that guides you through life. You can be quiet and reserved, but you are not conventional.

Down side: you can be high strung and hard to get along with because of your psychic
sensitivity. You are like a radio, broadcasting your energy outward and picking up static along with clear information. You need to allow time to be alone each day in order to recharge your batteries and quiet the static.

Number 8:

You love power, material possessions, and accomplishment. You are a born leader, and you thrive in the director’s chair. You like high quality and do not settle for second best. You have good judgment and a sense of fairness that allows you to get the most out of your employees/team members without seeming to boss them around. You keep your eye on the big picture and find others to take care of the details.

Down side: you can be a tyrant. Usually it’s because you are putting so much pressure on yourself you forget that you are working/living with actual people who can help you if you treat them nicely.

Number 9: Love for humanity drives you. You dream of helping mankind in a big way. You are the universal big sister or big brother; kind, understanding, compassionate, always willing to help. People are more important to you than anything.

Down side: You can be impractical and indecisive. Dreaming is a wonderful thing, but you need to put food on your table, too. You can get bogged down in self-pity when you discover some people don’t respond to the love you have for them.

Number 11/2:

You are inspired by the spiritual, but you are not religious; you love to explore the unseen. You are idealistic and see the world as full of beauty and infinite potential. You are a champion of the individual, and you long to inspire people to achieve their dreams. You have creative, unconventional ideas, and need to find ways to apply them in practical ways that serve humanity.

Down side: you tend to love ideals more than people. As you are able to cultivate unconditional love for yourself just as you are, you will cease judging others for their perceived failings. You can be stubborn, hasty, and domineering. Use diplomacy in communicating with others.

Number 22/4:

Your passion is to make dreams come true. You have high ideals, a great understanding of the spiritual and physical worlds, and have the practical know-how to manifest dreams on the physical plane. You love people, and you are a kind and patient leader.

Down side: your desire for perfection can alienate people. You are susceptible to the down side of the number 4. Have faith in yourself and your abilities.

Number 33/6:

Love and service drive you. You desire that everyone know how magnificent they are and how much they are loved by the Creator. You can see the good in everyone, no matter what others may say or think.

Down side: you tend to sacrifice yourself for others, creating trouble in your own life. Take time to give yourself the comfort you offer others.

Please keep in mind that these interpretations are brief in order to keep these posts as short as possible. My book, “You Were Born to Succeed,” goes into more detail.

Do you see yourself in any of these numbers? I’d love to have your comments.

Next time, Your Outer Life – how you look to others, the style of your life.

Caught in Traffic

 

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No, I’m not in NYC, but it sure feels like it around here. I’m caught up in Christmas prep (you know, shopping, trimming the tree, baking, etc.) and unable to keep up with blogging. I’m sure there are plenty of you out there who don’t have time to read blogs, either, so my next post in the series, “You Are More Than You Think You Are,” will appear during the first week of 2016.

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and Happy New Year to all. May this season bring you joy and wonderment.

Thanks so much for checking in to my blog.

XOXOXO

 

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You Are More than You Think You Are

Beginning a new series of articles about you – an adventure into your soul using the ancient science of Chaldean numerology to help you see the magnificence of who you really are.

This is a pretty long post, but I couldn’t figure out how to make it shorter. If you hang in there until the end I think you’ll be glad you did .

My experience as someone who was stumbling through a life that didn’t fulfill me and eventually as a spiritual teacher, counselor, and soul-centered psychotherapist has taught me that we humans are much more than we think we are. We have wisdom beyond our imaginings and the power to create the lives we’ve always wanted. We are here to wake up to our own wisdom and to the limitless possibilities we have before us.

We are here to be happy – not at the expense of others, but as a consequence of the unfoldment of our innate wisdom and talents. We were truly born to succeed by paying attention to our inner nature – by following those inner promptings that lead us to act on the talents we possess. This is true success – from the inside out.

My passion concerns the invisible part of us, our feelings and thoughts, our inner awareness, why we are here and where we came from. Many years ago, I began to investigate esoteric sciences, psychology, and mysticism to find answers. As I progressed in my search, my life changed. I found myself on a path of discovery that excited me. I was waking up and getting happy.

In these weekly articles, I’m going to share how Chaldean numerology helped me change my life. I hope you will find value in my experiences. I want you to experience fulfillment and happiness from the inside out. I want you to discover the brilliance of your innate wisdom and learn to trust that you know what’s best for you.

If there’s something in these articles that’s too far out for you to embrace, just skip it and move on. Everyone’s path to inner wisdom is different, so choose what makes sense to you and leave the rest.

Some Ideas that Make Sense to Me

You are a soul with a physical body – not a body with a soul. You are a spiritual being in a physical world, here to experience life as a fulfilling adventure. The inner you and outer you are irrevocably connected. Your outer life is a reflection of your inner consciousness. You are perfect as you are, even with your so-called faults.

You chose to be here at this very time in the very place you are right now, in the very conditions you are experiencing right now, whether you love, or not, your present circumstances. This is a tricky concept because we tend to automatically make ourselves wrong or blame others for the so-called bad in our lives. But what if you are infinitely wiser and more powerful than you have ever imagined? What if you chose the stuff you don’t like to teach you something about yourself?

When you go walking along a beautiful path in the woods and come upon an obstacle, maybe an overhanging bush or some tangled brush, do you blame the path for putting it in your way? Probably not. You find a way around it or cut the brush back and continue on. We all have challenges. If we learn to see them as opportunities to strengthen ourselves, doors of mastery we never imagined open for us.

Who Are You?

You are a powerful and deliberate co-creator with Spirit. You have created everything in your life in service to your spiritual growth. By going toward that which fascinates you, ignites your passions, and makes you happy, you are growing, getting happier, and automatically being of service to everyone around you. By finding ways to resolve your challenges, you are automatically creating opportunities of mastership for yourself and everyone around you.

Science is discovering that you did not come into this life as a blank slate. As an infinite being, you were born with all the wisdom you have gained through lifetimes of experience. You have co-created with Spirit the perfect plan for your life. You already know your life plan, but have forgotten all or part of it.

My Profound Experience

During my search for answers, I was drawn to study numerology and discovered the ancient esoteric science called Chaldean numerology. Its origins are traced all the way back to the beginning of civilization. I tested it on myself and many others against other numerology systems and found that my subjects and I resonated most to the Chaldean system. We felt it not only described us more accurately, but it clicked inside us like a key opening a door. I remember when I had that profound and powerful experience – I felt my life open up; I felt so comforted and reassured that I cried.

I discovered that Chaldean numerology reveals the life plan we have forgotten. I got so excited about it I included it in my psychotherapy practice. I developed what I call the Chaldean Soul Chart. It reveals the deep wisdom of your brilliant, best Self. It reveals the spiritual anatomy of your life – what you came to do, how you chose to do it, your past, present, and future, your strengths, talents, challenges, and any unfinished business you may have.

Here’s what it looks like.

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During the next few weeks, I’ll fill out the chart step by step, showing you a fictional Chaldean Soul Profile to give you a peek at what you can learn about yourself.

As you can see, in each section of the chart there is a space for a number. Each number has a meaning that reveals your inner and outer qualities. All the numbers combined reveal the life you have chosen to live.

Next week we’ll begin our journey through the chart. You may want to make a copy of it so you can follow along in the coming weeks. See you then, and congratulations for hanging in there.

What is Success?

Do you consider yourself a success? If not, why not? To be honest, it doesn’t matter whether you think you’re successful or not. At this moment you are a success because you are here this minute. You showed up. If you are breathing, you are successful.

The truth is, you are successful no matter what your situation in life is – even if you feel like a failure. If you are calling yourself a failure, just think about this – if you’re breathing, you have nowhere to go but up.

But what if you want more? What about that great job, making lots of money, the big house full of beautiful furniture and mega technology, the perfect children, all those degrees that make you smarter, being the perfect parent, closets full of clothes, etc., etc.? Aren’t these signs of success? I think most of us know that these certainly are signs of success. And we know that these are signs of outer success. But there’s more to success.

How do you feel inside? Are you pretty much stress free? Are you in good health? Do you love your life? Do you feel self confident? Are there people in your life who love you unconditionally, whom you love unconditionally? Do you love yourself unconditionally? Is your behavior (most of the time) a reflection of your inner divinity? Not only that, do you realize you are a spiritual being having a physical experience and, as such, you have the qualities to create the life you’ve always wanted – without struggle, striving, and competition?

These are some of the signs of inner success. In order to be truly successful, we need the qualities of inner success to guide us in achieving outer success. The qualities of inner success help us achieve what we want and make it possible to enjoy sharing our wealth with others.

Many who appear successful don’t know what success is. We all know of wealthy, powerful people who are on their fifth or sixth spouse, who have no family life, who have health problems, emotional problems, and money problems (it doesn’t matter how much money they have, it’s still a problem).

Are they truly successful? They certainly have surpassed the basic standard of success. They are breathing. Are they contented with what they have? Do they respect themselves and others? In my view, they have a big piece of the pie but they can’t taste it because they don’t know who they are.

What if it’s true that you are successful just because you are here on earth? What if your opportunity (should you decide to accept it) is only to be who you are – to develop the talents you brought with you? What if enjoying life is an essential part of your purpose? What if facing and healing your challenges is a fantastic opportunity to create more happiness in your life? What if you’ve shown up just when the world needs you?

It doesn’t matter whether you are becoming the next Mother Teresa, or  loving life as the best dishwasher ever.

Success is really an inside job.

Live your purpose, love your life!

Personal Years – Your Future Revealed

An important part of your Chaldean Soul Chart is the Personal Years section, showing you a 9-year cycle. This section is part of the Cycles section of your chart, and provides a look into your future, year by year. In this post, I’m going to show you how to calculate your personal years, and I’ll share some of my experiences with personal years.

This is a pretty long article, but it’s because of two things; the directions on how to calculate your personal years, and the interpretations of the numbers. So hang in there. It’ll go fast.

Our Personal Year numbers reveal our future in the form of trends that will dominate during their influence. Your personal years flow as naturally as breathing, and bring you experiences that keep you on track with your life purpose.

When you resist the influence of your personal years, you experience feelings like frustration, you’re stuck, struggling, working hard trying to make things happen. It’s like trying to swim upstream against a powerful current.

Your personal year always begins on your birthday and ends on the day before your next birthday. You may sense your personal year influence moving in up to three months before your birthday. During this transition time, you might feel confusion, irritability, impatience or a lack of direction if you aren’t aware of what’s happening.

Calculating your personal year is easy. But there are some things you need to know before you start.

  • Use the calendar year to calculate your personal year (in numerology it’s called the Universal Year – this year it’s 2014).
  • If you were born between the months of January and June, use the current universal year to calculate your personal year.
  • If you were born between July and December, use the next universal year. For 2014, use 2015.

 Here’s how to calculate.

  1. Write down the number of the month you were born and reduce it to a single digit, if necessary.
  2. Write down the date you were born and reduce it to a single digit, if necessary.
  3. Add the sums of these two numbers together and reduce to a single digit, if necessary.
  4. Add the digits of the universal year together and reduce to a single digit, if necessary.
  5. Add the sums of steps 3 and 4 together and reduce to a single digit, if necessary. If this sum is a Master Number (11, 22, 33) do not reduce to a single digit.

 Example 1 for 2014: June 28

 June = 6

  1. 28 =  2 + 8 = 10 = 1 + 0 = 1
  2. 6 + 1 = 7
  3. 2 + 0 + 1 + 4 = 7
  4. 7 + 7 = 14 = 5, Personal Year number for June 28 in 2014

Example 2 for 2014: November 18

  1. November = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2
  2. 18 = 1 + 8 =  9
  3. 2 + 9 = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2
  4. 2 + 0 + 1 + 5 = 8
  5. 2 + 8 = 10 = 1 + 0 = 1, Personal Year number for November 18 in 2014

 If you calculate your personal years for a full 9-year cycle, you’ll see how the rhythm of personal years works. Each year prepares you for the next. Each year builds upon the experiences of the previous year. With each nine-year period, you gain more experience and develop more strength and wisdom if you follow the path your cycles indicate.

You can compare personal year cycles with your spouse, children, friends or co-workers. Understanding how your personal year cycles compare and contrast helps improve relationships. You can support each other on a deeper level knowing the influences that are present in the lives of your loved ones and the people you work with.

For more help in understanding how your cycles work, calculate the previous 9 years to see how they played out.

Here are the interpretations for each number. These interpretations are short because of space considerations. There is more detail in my book.

Number          Interpretation

       1                 The beginning of a new cycle, this will be a year of initiating; starting new projects, making new plans, meeting new people, taking the lead, following your own instincts and intuition.

       2                 This is a year for cooperation, partnerships, working in harmony with others, and creating peace within and without. Your feelings and psychic abilities are emphasized.

       3                This is a year for branching out; social activities, self expression, promotion, and creativity. It is a time to enjoy the lighter side of life;  entertaining, going out with friends, getting involved in the creative arts.

       4                This is a year for building, for creating routines and systems, for patiently attending to details, for creating a solid foundation that will serve you for years to come. It is a demanding year that requires self discipline.

       5                This is a period of change, freedom, movement, activity of almost any sort. It’s a time of adjusting to new things, a time of expansion, and a time of learning to let go. Changes are new opportunities for growth.

       6                Your attention will be on home, family, and health. There will be family responsibilities. There could be health issues. You may become more involved in your community. It’s a good year to get married.

       7                This is usually a quiet year, as the vibration is one of introspection, study, research, regrouping, and reevaluating. Allow developments to unfold for you rather than trying to force them. Allow time to be alone. Being out in nature will soothe and refresh you.

       8                This can be a dynamic year with lots of energy for dealing with material things and money. It is a good year for business success. Use good judgment, exercise your leadership, be efficient and practical, and think big.

       9                As the last year in the cycle, this is the year of endings. You could be ending relationships or a job, cleaning out your old stuff, or changing old attitudes and habits. You are letting go of things that no longer serve you.

    11/2             This is an illuminating, inspiring year full of high energy and deep sensitivity. It is a time of evaluating your motives and ethics. Your interests will be in metaphysical, spiritual, or scientific exploration.

    22/4             This is the year to put your ideas into action. Think big. Go after your dreams. Build something that serves mankind. This is not the year for purely personal goals.

    33/6             This is a year for unselfish service and communication. You will be involved in carrying out responsibilities and duties to friends, family, and community. Share the love – fun is important, and a good party is a source of happiness for everybody.

I’d like to share some of my experiences with you to give you a feel for the way personal years work. My personal year for 2012-13 was #6. Three big things happened that correspond to the #6 influence.

  •  I became a volunteer at our local arts center. I get to immerse myself in the art world, and I began to paint and draw again after being away from it for too many years.
  • I had the worst cold of my life. I couldn’t work for a month, and a friend pointed out that it was my work that was making me sick. Letting go of some limiting beliefs about work has helped me begin to transform my career. It has brought me the freedom to experiment and try new ideas.
  • I learned that a cherished family member has cancer. She is in a #9 personal year, the year of endings, a time for her to let go of people, things, and beliefs that are no longer serving her. It is a life-changing experience for everyone in our family, and we are supporting her for complete recovery.

Last June, I made the transition into a #7 personal year, a time of seeking truth and  looking inward. I am enjoying time alone – living in a cocoon and loving it. I’m developing research I began years ago, working on new ideas, improving my skills and re-evaluating my goals. This month, the universal year number, 2014, became the same as my personal year number, and I’m feeling the double influence.

 Whether we see our personal year experiences as good or bad, the most important thing is to use them all as opportunities for growth and loving support for ourselves and others.

Have your say! Do your numbers and let us know what you come up with. Questions? Just ask.

 Live your purpose, love your life!

Hidden Passion, Abandoned Dreams

This is the story, in three installments, of how I woke up to my life purpose. I tell it because many people have a similar story – of hiding their passion, of living someone else’s version of their life and suffering inwardly for it. I hope my story inspires readers to follow their heart – to learn from my experience – to stop denying who they are and discover the power that lies within.

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Some people come out of the womb knowing what their purpose in life is. They don’t even think about it. From wordless toddler hood they live and breathe their passion. But I didn’t have a clue about mine. I was worried by the time high school graduation rolled around. I thought by that time I should have a direction for the rest of my life.

 My up-bringing was no help (so I thought at the time). My sister and I were raised by an abusive mother, physically and mentally bullied into obedience, our self-expression smothered. Our father was the one who held the love in our family and, being the typical breadwinner of the 1950s when I grew up, didn’t have a clue what went on at home when he was at work.

 At that time, by graduation from high school boys were expected to know what they were going to do for the rest of their lives. Girls were supposed to get married and have babies, but I didn’t want to get married, much less have babies. When I made the mistake of mentioning this to my mother, she came back with, “You don’t know what you’re talking about.” I knew there was something more compelling for me, but I didn’t know what it was. I went to college and majored in Fine Arts, hoping for an answer.

 While I loved art work, I was enthralled by the mind; by what makes people tick. One of the most gripping books I read in my early teens was The Snake Pit, a novel about the use of shock treatments for mental illness in the 1940s and ‘50s, which I found both frightening and fascinating.

Even more fascinating to me were psychic phenomena. What was psychic awareness? Where did it come from? I wanted to be psychic. There wasn’t much information about psychic awareness or intuition back then, and the books I found were sensationalist, full of drama and dire warnings.

I was looking for something educational during a time when the subject was taboo. The closest I got to actual psychic phenomena was at high school sleepovers where my friends and I would use a Ouija board, conduct séances, or try to make a table tip, but nothing ever happened. According to what I learned years later, we were lucky.

My most heart-felt pursuits were not taken seriously. I was told I would never be able to make a living with art work. (Funny, I had never heard anyone say the same thing to a boy). And psychic studies were completely ridiculous. The only career open in that field was giving psychic readings in your living room, which would guarantee poverty and ruin your reputation, according to the values in my world. I think my parents paid for my college education believing I would eventually come to my senses and get married. They were right about one thing.

Even though my belief in myself was almost nil, I hoped that somehow I would succeed in life. Because of my interests, I felt like a fish out of water, a lost soul with no clue how to find her way. To compound my frustration, I eventually allowed myself to be talked out of pursuing my dreams and into getting married – a big mistake (except for the birth of my son), but I was a pleaser, and I was good at it.

 Next time, I get a wake-up call.

Hidden Passion, Abandoned Dreams – Part 2

Through the Wringer

 After years of abuse growing up, coupled with the self-betrayal of marriage, I had my first anxiety attack, maybe the most frightening experience of my life. I was on a bus, when suddenly an intense fear consumed me, flooding every cell in my body. My heart beat like a jackhammer, and I was afraid it would fail any second. I could hardly breathe. The thought that I was going to die right there on the bus in front of everyone added utter humiliation to my living nightmare. (I’m from New England, where calling attention to oneself in public is not done). Desperately, I held on to consciousness, managing to take in a little more air with each breath. I stoically retained my calm demeanor during this assault. The attack finally passed, and I never mentioned it to anyone. Instead, I lived in fear of another one.

 There were two more attacks before I finally told someone about them – my family doctor, who had no idea how to help me. No one knew what an anxiety attack was back then. That’s when I told my husband and my family that I was having problems, and went into psychotherapy. There was no discussion and no open support from my husband and family because we were all too afraid to talk about it. I was in therapy for about a year, and it helped me release a fraction of the fear that I would become well acquainted with in future years. I was also pregnant.

 I was working as a fabric designer and my husband was working on his Masters degree at that time. Shortly before he received his degree, our baby was born. Before our son was a year old, we were driving from Columbus, Ohio, to Lafayette, Louisiana, in our used car, whose breaks failed on a hill in downtown Cincinnati, lugging a U-Haul trailer filled with the few possessions we had. We were on our way to my husband’s first job as an art instructor at Southwest Louisiana State College.

I became a stay-at-home mother, a welcome change from working for the first five years of my marriage. I loved taking care of my adorable son and having coffee with the other young faculty wives. But the day we moved into our rented house, I remember standing in the kitchen feeling doomed by the thought of cooking three meals a day, every day for the rest of my life. It was beyond depressing. So I explored new recipes to keep myself from sinking beneath the waves of utter boredom and burning resentment. I learned to bake bread, to venture beyond my traditional family food ways in the meat and potatoes department, and my next door neighbor taught me to cook wonderful Cajun food.

I had all kinds of time for art work, but serious research into psychic awareness gradually took over. While my husband was at work and my son was napping, I learned from books as much as I could about psychic phenomena and the mysteries of the mind.

 Some of the most important books to me at that time were Psycho-Cybernetics by Dr. Maxwell Maltz, a successful cosmetic surgeon who was inspired to stop treating “outer scars” and treat “inner scars” instead after observing that his clients’ new faces weren’t helping them feel better about themselves; The Betty Book by Stewart Edward White, Western Adventure author, in which he wrote about his wife Betty’s development as a psychic medium; and The Sleeping Prophet by Jess Stern, the biography of a farm boy, Edgar Cayce, who became a renowned psychic medium and healer, and whose readings have been archived in the most massive collection of psychic information ever obtained from a single source by the Association for Research and Enlightenment (A.R.E.) in Virginia Beach, Virginia.

 From books written by the celebrity mystic, Chiero, who was popular in the early 20th century, I learned palm reading, astrology, and numerology, which, oddly enough, didn’t impress me then. Guess I had other things to learn before tackling numerology. Again through a book, I took up hatha yoga and loved the energy I received from the refreshing and strengthening exercises that created serenity within. From another book I learned astral travel, exploring life by projecting my awareness beyond my body.

 No one else was interested my far-out ventures. I was alone in my self-created mystery school; a mystic unaware. I searched for formal training in the psychic arts, but was unable to find a trustworthy program devoid of sensationalism.

Eventually there was a divorce. Instead of feeling grief, I felt relief. I was free! It was during the ‘60s (no, I didn’t become a hippie), and I searched for training in psychic awareness, which was more accessible then. I was also learning how to be a single mother at a time when my sister was the only other single mother I knew. We were the first divorcees in the history of our family, and among the first in an escalating wave of divorce in the U.S. that continued into the 1980s.

Next time, things begin to look up.

Hidden Passion, Abandoned Dreams – Part 3

The Fun Begins

I finally discovered a school for psychic development that I trusted would not try to control and manipulate me, the Americana Leadership College, whose approach was grounded in practicality and whose experience-based curriculum included self growth in addition to training in psychic awareness. I was affiliated with this school for ten years as a student, a lecturer, a counselor, and a teacher. I eventually went out on my own and developed my spiritual teaching and counseling practice.

In spite of all my experience in spiritual growth and psychic development, I longed to find my purpose in life. It never occurred to me that I was already living it by pursuing my passion. I thought that my purpose had to appear as a bolt of lightening striking at a moment of inspiration, revealing a vision of words etched in fire containing specific instructions that would tell me exactly what to do. Or something like that.

Having been beaten down most of my life, I had an almost non-existent sense of identity. Later I would understand that it was my inability to see my innate value that prevented me from recognizing that I was, indeed, living my purpose.

It was when I re-discovered Chaldean numerology that my challenges were revealed in a way that showed me how to resolve them and helped me stop beating myself up because of them. It was my Main Challenge – the number 1, a low level of self worth – that prevented me from seeing myself as a worthy person deserving of the best this world has to offer.

I learned to see this condition as a lesson I had chosen for my greater good. If I resolved it, I would have a Master’s degree in Self Worth. Having people in my life who belittled me was a way to keep this lesson in front of me until it became so irritating I would finally deal with it – kind of like an in-grown toenail. Having these people in my family was my way of ensuring that I couldn’t ignore it.

As my sense of self worth and self love increased, I learned to let go of anger and stand up for myself calmly and confidently. It wasn’t easy, but the alternative was even harder on me. My experience changed my opinion of dysfunctional families, which I talk about in my book. I now believe that there is no such thing; every family has a function, even if it’s an unpleasant one.

On a positive note, the numbers showed me why I was attracted to the visual arts and spiritual seeking. These were the numbers that pointed out my strengths. In these numbers, I saw that I was born a creative person who thrives on inspiration and exploration, not only of the mind, but the soul. My exploration would be done in unconventional ways – going beyond what psychology and religion could offer.

Talk about coming home! My sense of self worth increased. For the first time in my life, I felt appreciation for myself. Because of the powerful healing I experienced with it, I incorporated Chaldean numerology into my psychotherapy practice.

My desire to learn more about the mind and the soul drove me to seek more education. I received certification from The Crystal Awareness Institute in Crystalotherapy, which consists of using rock crystals to heal the body and the spirit, a branch of what is known today as Energy Medicine. I became certified as a Transformational Breath Facilitator by the Transformational Breath Foundation, which allows emotional issues to be healed without the trauma so often present in other types of work. I realized a long-standing dream when I received a Master’s degree in Applied Psychology from the University of Santa Monica, a center for the study and practice of spiritual psychology, and may be the first school of its kind in the world. I had waited more than 30 years for a school with a soul-centered approach to psychology whose teachings I could incorporate into my psychotherapy practice.

Imagine living a life of exciting possibility – a life of joy, accomplishment, and fulfillment – a life in which you no longer fear your challenges, but understand them as lessons  which will open you up to greater levels of inner and outer success.

Discovering your purpose isn’t always easy, but it’s as simple as following your dreams. If you are unsure, insecure, or hesitant, as I was, Chaldean numerology will reveal the little instruction book of life you brought with you, encoded in your name and birth date.

I remember the years of emptiness, drifting from day to day with no sense of direction. I’m grateful those days are behind me now. Life has become an exciting adventure for me. I’m still exploring, still learning, but now I know where I’m going, and I’m enjoying the journey.

I’m proud of my e-book, You Were Born to Succeed: Finding Your Purpose through Numerology. It was a challenge and a labor of love, and the best way I could think of to share with people all over the world how powerful you become when you bring forward the wealth of gifts you were born with. If you are living a life of someone else’s dreams, download my e-book and discover who you really are. You were born to succeed, and you deserve to live the life of your dreams.

  Live your purpose, love your life!

Your Life Purpose

Knowledge will make you free

Whether you realize it or not, your life purpose is the most important thing in your life. Living the purpose you were born for is more important than anything else you will ever do.

Perhaps you are one of the few who knows what their purpose on earth is – who knows who you are and why you are here. For most of us, the knowledge of our purpose has been buried under the shoulds, musts, do-as-you’re tolds, the hurts and misunderstandings we picked up in childhood.

I was one of those. Even though I was fulfilled in my career, I knew there was something missing. I needed to go deeper, offer more, but I couldn’t put my finger on what “more” was. My family relationships were challenging, to say the least, and my self-confidence was pretty low. A part of me felt lost in spite of my success.

I have always been fascinated by the occult, and have done research into many of the occult sciences. I had an inner knowing that there was value and wisdom in these little-known disciplines, even though they were a source of fear for many people. During my research, I came across Chaldean numerology, the original source of numerology, as far as we know. It is named after the Chaldeans, part of the ancient Sumerian civilization that sprang up in the Tigris-Euphrates valley about 6,000 years ago.

True to my habit of using myself as a guinea pig, I calculated my Chaldean numerology chart and was astounded by the results. All my vague inner longings were vividly revealed as innate strengths in my spiritual nature, validating the dreams I’d had all my life that had been judged impractical and useless by my parents and other authority figures who didn’t understand. That in itself would have been enough for me to celebrate. But there was more. I saw my past, present, and future. I saw that the abuse I experienced in my childhood was part of my unique learning process; for the first time, I new where to start to heal my hurts. I was so impressed with this that I incorporated numerology into my psychotherapy practice.

I could go on about my amazing experience that day, but the important thing is that I developed a way to structure a chart that contains all the directions we need to live a life of  meaning, purpose, and positive impact. Who says life doesn’t come with an instruction book?

If you have read my blog pages, you know about my book and my private consultations that help you re-discover the purpose you were born for. If you are one of the many whose purpose is buried under a pile of negative beliefs like mine was, I invite you to consider buying my book or booking me for a private consultation.

You are the most important person in the world to yourself. Living your purpose heals you and heals the world.