I missed a blog post last Friday. I lied on Facebook today – thought I got my Friday post in before my computer crashed, but I didn’t. My computer got infected by a virus – first time I’ve had that experience, so I thought I’d tell you the story of my angst and ultimate recovery.
When I received the messages of infection late Thursday night, I immediately went into panic mode. (Old habits die hard). There was a complication involving my telephone, which also was not working. I imagined the worst scenarios possible: lost a day of blogging – a disaster, my Internet days were over, all the work I’d done up to then was for nothing, how was I going to reach my Internet provider?, I was a failure. (We psychotherapists are human beings, after all.)
I can be quite the drama queen when I put my mind to it. My experience tells me it’s because I am a Gemini and my Life Purpose number is 3, both influences contributing to a tendency for rapid emotional slides up or down, depending on what’s happening in my life. Because I am aware of this, I have developed strategies to deal with it. These are implemented when I ultimately tire of the drama and decide I want to feel good again. High anxiety puts a heavy toll on the self.
I regained my sanity with a powerful healing process that enabled me to change my emotional state in a few seconds that night. Here’s how I learned it.
While listening to a webinar featuring Mary A. Hall on Jennifer McLean’s “Healing with the Masters” series a few weeks ago (www.bigbookofyoublog.com/healing-with-the-masters/living-abundantly-with-mary-a-hall/), I had a stunning experience. Mary’s amazing work is centered on the heart. She shared a meditation that opened up new levels of peace within me, and she said something so profound I will always remember it. As she led the meditation, guiding us to the physical spot where the heart center is located, she said something that gave me a startling new insight. She said there is no pain, no hurt, and no anxiety in the heart; there never was and there never will be. What is present in the heart center is love, all is well, it’s OK. I had never perceived the heart center in that way before. At that moment, I could feel the peace physically flowing through my body, relaxing all my muscles and infusing me with warmth. I felt a sense of complete acceptance of what is. And what a comfort to know that there is a calm, loving center within that I can go to whatever life offers me.
When I finally tuned in to my wonderful heart center last Thursday night, it told me everything was OK, no worries, all was well. At that moment I received a solution for the telephone problem and an elegant plan for the next three days which brought me fulfilling opportunities while my computer was being restored to health. My inner knowing told me everything would work out perfectly, and it did.
I focus on my heart center every day in meditation. I invite you to try it. I am grateful that I followed my intuition and tuned in to Mary’s session on the web that day. You can visit her website at http://www.healthandhealingconnections.com/About.htm.
- Meditation: Beyond Enlightenment! (brighthub.com)