Hidden Passion, Abandoned Dreams – Part 3

The Fun Begins

I finally discovered a school for psychic development that I trusted would not try to control and manipulate me, the Americana Leadership College, whose approach was grounded in practicality and whose experience-based curriculum included self growth in addition to training in psychic awareness. I was affiliated with this school for ten years as a student, a lecturer, a counselor, and a teacher. I eventually went out on my own and developed my spiritual teaching and counseling practice.

In spite of all my experience in spiritual growth and psychic development, I longed to find my purpose in life. It never occurred to me that I was already living it by pursuing my passion. I thought that my purpose had to appear as a bolt of lightening striking at a moment of inspiration, revealing a vision of words etched in fire containing specific instructions that would tell me exactly what to do. Or something like that.

Having been beaten down most of my life, I had an almost non-existent sense of identity. Later I would understand that it was my inability to see my innate value that prevented me from recognizing that I was, indeed, living my purpose.

It was when I re-discovered Chaldean numerology that my challenges were revealed in a way that showed me how to resolve them and helped me stop beating myself up because of them. It was my Main Challenge – the number 1, a low level of self worth – that prevented me from seeing myself as a worthy person deserving of the best this world has to offer.

I learned to see this condition as a lesson I had chosen for my greater good. If I resolved it, I would have a Master’s degree in Self Worth. Having people in my life who belittled me was a way to keep this lesson in front of me until it became so irritating I would finally deal with it – kind of like an in-grown toenail. Having these people in my family was my way of ensuring that I couldn’t ignore it.

As my sense of self worth and self love increased, I learned to let go of anger and stand up for myself calmly and confidently. It wasn’t easy, but the alternative was even harder on me. My experience changed my opinion of dysfunctional families, which I talk about in my book. I now believe that there is no such thing; every family has a function, even if it’s an unpleasant one.

On a positive note, the numbers showed me why I was attracted to the visual arts and spiritual seeking. These were the numbers that pointed out my strengths. In these numbers, I saw that I was born a creative person who thrives on inspiration and exploration, not only of the mind, but the soul. My exploration would be done in unconventional ways – going beyond what psychology and religion could offer.

Talk about coming home! My sense of self worth increased. For the first time in my life, I felt appreciation for myself. Because of the powerful healing I experienced with it, I incorporated Chaldean numerology into my psychotherapy practice.

My desire to learn more about the mind and the soul drove me to seek more education. I received certification from The Crystal Awareness Institute in Crystalotherapy, which consists of using rock crystals to heal the body and the spirit, a branch of what is known today as Energy Medicine. I became certified as a Transformational Breath Facilitator by the Transformational Breath Foundation, which allows emotional issues to be healed without the trauma so often present in other types of work. I realized a long-standing dream when I received a Master’s degree in Applied Psychology from the University of Santa Monica, a center for the study and practice of spiritual psychology, and may be the first school of its kind in the world. I had waited more than 30 years for a school with a soul-centered approach to psychology whose teachings I could incorporate into my psychotherapy practice.

Imagine living a life of exciting possibility – a life of joy, accomplishment, and fulfillment – a life in which you no longer fear your challenges, but understand them as lessons  which will open you up to greater levels of inner and outer success.

Discovering your purpose isn’t always easy, but it’s as simple as following your dreams. If you are unsure, insecure, or hesitant, as I was, Chaldean numerology will reveal the little instruction book of life you brought with you, encoded in your name and birth date.

I remember the years of emptiness, drifting from day to day with no sense of direction. I’m grateful those days are behind me now. Life has become an exciting adventure for me. I’m still exploring, still learning, but now I know where I’m going, and I’m enjoying the journey.

I’m proud of my e-book, You Were Born to Succeed: Finding Your Purpose through Numerology. It was a challenge and a labor of love, and the best way I could think of to share with people all over the world how powerful you become when you bring forward the wealth of gifts you were born with. If you are living a life of someone else’s dreams, download my e-book and discover who you really are. You were born to succeed, and you deserve to live the life of your dreams.

  Live your purpose, love your life!

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8 thoughts on “Hidden Passion, Abandoned Dreams – Part 3

  1. This is interesting indeed. It’s great – inspiring – to read how you went from strength to strength.

    There is just so many clues on this earth, it’s astonishing. I’m fascinated.

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    1. Thanks for your comment, Noeleen. I’m honored that my story is inspiring to you. I read your post, Restraint, to learn about the name of your blog. Unique and completely suited term for your experience – poetic, too. Powerful writing.

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      1. Thank you very much. I really appreciate you coming by & reading. I wonder if it was “written in my stars” what passed, who knows, or in the numbers. This life truly is a mystery.

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      2. What a great question! I know this will sound like an excuse to sell my book, but it isn’t meant that way. If you decide you want to explore the idea, get my book and do your numbers. I’m betting that you will receive healing insights into your heart-breaking experience. And congrats for not letting that experience ruin your life.

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