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Your Fabulous Life Purpose

I just completed an interview with Richard Dugan on his radio show, “Tell Me Your Story.” We talked about your fabulous life purpose!  Listen here.

Richard is an information geek. Check out more great interviews on everything from healing to finances on his website at http://richarddugan.com.

You Are More Than You Think You Are

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Your Cycles – Personal Years and Personal Months

The shorter cycles of Personal Years and Personal Months tell you where you’ve been, where you are now, and where you are going, just as the longer cycles do. Since these cycles are shorter, you get a more immediate picture of the flow of your life.

Your cycles proceed in an orderly fashion whether you are aware of them or not. You don’t have to try to follow your cycles. Appropriate experiences appear before you automatically. The process is effortless. You choose whether or not to flow with your cycles. The trick is to have faith and allow yourself to go with the flow. If you find yourself traveling a bumpy road full of frustration, chances are you may be resisting the cycle you are in.

If you’re like me, and want understanding along with faith, learning about your cycles will make life easier. Since I’ve learned about my cycles I feel more secure about the present and future. In fact, I feel excited about the potential opportunities that are opening up for me.

Currently, I’m in a number 9 Personal Year, which can be challenging because it’s about ending in all its forms. Relationships may change or come to an end, jobs or certain routines can change or end, objects may be lost, attitudes can change radically, and streamlining your environment becomes important. Unpleasant endings are less upsetting for me than they were before because I know these experiences are ultimately for my good and are preparing me for the next 9-year cycle full of new opportunities.

Your Personal Year cycles are, obviously, one year in duration. They begin on your birthday and end the day before your next birthday. In reality, you sometimes begin to attract the experiences of your next Personal Year up to three months before your birthday. Here’s an earlier post about Personal Years that goes into more depth.

Knowledge of your Personal Months can enhance the experiences of your Personal Years and contribute to a strong foundation as you welcome new experiences into your life. The interpretations below apply to both Personal Years and Personal Months.

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Interpretations

Number 1:

The beginning of a new cycle, this is a time of initiating, starting new projects, making new plans, meeting new people, taking the lead, following your own instincts and intuition. Express your individuality, stand up for yourself, and establish independence. Hesitation or lack of initiative will set you back.

Number 2:

This is a time for cooperation, partnerships, working in harmony with others, and creating peace within and without. It’s a time to develop the new projects and ideas of the Number 1 period, attending to details, networking, friendship, and collaboration.

Number 3:

This is a time for branching out; social activities, self expression, promoting yourself and your projects, and creativity. It’s a time to enjoy the lighter side of life by entertaining, going out with friends, and getting involved in the creative arts. Projects involving words, such as writing, lecturing, teaching, or singing are emphasized.

Number 4:

This is a time for building, for creating routines and systems that make life easier, patiently attending to details, and creating a powerful foundation that will serve you and others for years to come. You may have high expenses. You will need to stay focused to be successful, as this is a demanding period that requires self discipline.

Number 5:

This is a period of change, freedom, movement, activity of almost any sort. It’s a time of adjusting to new conditions, expansion, and learning to let go. It can be quite an adventure. See changes as new opportunities for your growth and fulfillment.

Number 6:

This is a time when your attention will be on home, family, and health. Family responsibilities come forward at this time, and there could be changes in your home. Pay attention to your health by taking good care of yourself. You may be taking care of a family member.

Number 7:

This is usually a quiet time, as the vibration is one of introspection, study, research, regrouping, and reevaluating. It is a time of rest, meditation, and spiritual and mental housecleaning. Allow developments to unfold for you rather than trying to force them. Make sure you get enough exercise, since your head may be in the clouds much of the time, and exercise will keep you grounded.

Number 8:

This can be a dynamic time with lots of energy. It is a good time for business success if you have grown with your previous cycles. It is a time for being organized, using good judgment, exercising your leadership, being efficient and practical, and thinking big.

Number 9:

As the last period in the cycle, it is a time of endings. You could be ending a relationship or a job, cleaning out your old stuff, or changing old attitudes and habits. You are letting go of conditions that no longer serve you, and sometimes it’s a relief and sometimes it’s unpleasant. In the case of Personal Years, you are preparing to start all over again with the next number 1 period.

Number 11/2:

This is an illuminating and inspiring time full of high energy and deep sensitivity. It is a time to evaluate your motives and ethics and make adjustments where necessary. You will not be satisfied with casually brushing things off. You will be motivated to be the best you can be, setting new standards of excellence for yourself.

Number 22/4:

This is the period to put your ideas into action. Think big, go after your dreams. Those that involve service to others will be successful. Build something that serves mankind. Take charge and watch your dreams unfold.

Number 33/6:

This is a time for communication and unselfish service. You will be involved in fulfilling responsibilities and duties to friends, family, and community. Your attention will be directed toward benefiting others. Share your love, understanding, inner peace, and serenity. Your reward will be to gain twice as much as you give. Remember to have fun.

All your cycles are calculated from your birth date. If you want to know how to calculate your own cycles, visit https://youwerebornthatway.com/about/, where you can learn about my book, You Were Born to Succeed: Finding Your Purpose through Numerology. It’s easy to order, and it will show you how to calculate all the numbers for your Chaldean Soul Chart, plus a lot more about what it means to be a spiritual being having a physical experience.

It’s been fun to share the elements of numerology with you in this series. I hope you’ve gained a better understanding of this dynamic and practical occult science. And I hope you’ve begun to see it as a powerful tool you can use to help you live the life of success and happiness you were meant for.

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You Are More Than You Think You Are

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Cycles – Your Challenges

I was miserable, crying desperately, and my heart was breaking. I had just received a spanking for an infraction of one of my mother’s rules. But something about that one was different. In addition to the stinging pain, I felt a deep sorrow, hopeless, unable ever to be redeemed. I ran to my father who was sitting in his easy chair reading the paper, hoping he would rescue me from the frightening abyss on which I was teetering. He ignored me. At the age of 3 years I felt completely alone, stranded in a world that hated me.

This was a key experience in which I told myself I must be unworthy of love, understanding, or mercy. Otherwise, how could they treat me that way? At that age, of course, I could not verbalize the feeling but it was there, and it remained for years. Much later I learned this and similar experiences were the expression of my Main Challenge, the number 1.

Typically with this challenge, I blamed myself, assuming there must be something wrong with me. From then on for many years I believed my life was unimportant, and I spent a great deal of time taking a backseat to others, feeling lesser-than, without purpose, and ineffective.

Challenge experiences are wake-up calls from our souls urging us to clear the way toward a better life. As painful as these experiences are, I have come to understand that we choose them in order to resolve the emotional issues and mental blocks that are preventing us from living the successful lives we were born for.

It was hard for me to accept the idea that I had chosen mental and physical abuse to wake me up. Now I had to blame myself for being stupid instead of blaming the world for being mean. What made it easier to accept is figuring out that if I had actually chosen my challenges, I could also master them.

Even so, it wasn’t easy. Fear held me back, and facing my fears took all the courage I could muster. I had a lot of help. A year of psychotherapy helped me start looking inward for answers. Many years’ training in personal development, metaphysics, and psychology helped me heal my issues. I’m no longer afraid of my challenges because I no longer believe they mean something is wrong with me. They are just part of my schooling on Planet Earth.

By the way, it’s not necessary to spend years in psychotherapy to master your challenges. I still have issues come up, but now I have ways to quickly resolve them. If you look around you will find self-healing methods that work almost instantly. I’ll share some of them in a future blog post.

See if you can recognize some of your challenges in the following interpretations. It’s not easy to face your challenges – they’re called challenges for a reason. If you try out the idea that you chose them, you’ll see that you have the power to master them.

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Interpretations

Number 0:

If you have this one, you are an old soul who has experienced all the other challenges, and now it’s time to be the executive of your own life. You don’t trust your own decisions, depending on others to make decisions for you. The only trouble is you’re never satisfied with what they choose, not to mention being led down the garden path.

Consult with others for their opinions, but make your own decisions from the ideas you’ve gathered. Make the leap. You’ll land on your feet. Think of this challenge as the final polishing of a beautiful gem.

Number 1:

This is the challenge of low self-worth, a lack of self-respect, putting yourself last. You are inwardly independent but assert yourself only if you are angry or through other dramatic means, like rejection. The people in your life who disapprove of you are there to teach you to stand up for yourself without stepping on other people’s toes.

It’s time to approve of yourself and let go of their opinions. Learn to love yourself exactly as you are and focus on your talents and abilities instead of your perceived faults. Find ways to learn forgiveness for yourself and others. Don’t depend on others; let them know they can depend on you.

Number 2:

You are excessively dependent on others, a pleaser, taking everything personally. You are a tender-hearted soul, sensitive to people’s feelings, and you want them to be happy. You tend to lose yourself in relationships by sacrificing your own wishes. You turn yourself inside out to make things right and end up suffering for it, then resenting the people you wanted to please.

Learn to please yourself first and ask for what you want. Others will not learn how to treat you well unless you teach them. Trust yourself. Appreciate yourself for who you are. You are not responsible for the happiness of others, and no fair comparing yourself to anyone else.

Number 3:

You are very creative, but you allow others to squelch your self expression. You find it almost impossible at times to let people know how you really feel. Sometimes you don’t even know how you really feel. It’s okay to have feelings, and it can be an adventure to look inside to see what’s there. You tend to take everything too seriously.

Allow yourself some fun. Get out with friends, meet new people, take lessons, join groups that interest you, allow your sense of humor to come out, entertain, and develop an optimistic outlook. Life is meant to be enjoyed. Be careful of spreading yourself too thin.

Number 4:

You have too much self-discipline or not enough. You may hide in carefully-constructed routines and systems to avoid contact with others or encountering bumps in the road of life. Or, you may be disorganized, careless, lazy, and undisciplined, or sometimes one extreme and sometimes the other. Your challenge is to learn to enjoy working consistently toward a goal without making it into drudgery.

You need structure in your life, and you need to learn to be flexible within that structure. You need goals to strive for. Pay attention to detail, be patient, be on time, let go of worry, and create systems that keep drudgery to a minimum. Instead of trying to force results, learn to allow things to unfold naturally.

Number 5:

This is the challenge of freedom at any price. You tend to be stubborn when you believe your freedom is being restricted, daring others to tell you what to do so you can show them you will do the opposite, whether you want to or not. You don’t want to be tied down, you are casual about responsibility, you use excess as an escape, and you tend to be impulsive. Your challenge is to learn what freedom really is; acting in alignment with your soul’s wisdom.

Learn to let go of the old and welcome new ways and ideas. Trying to lug old ideas, habits, grudges, etc., around is like dragging an anvil behind you wherever you go. As you begin to live in alignment with your spirit, you will experience the satisfaction of happiness with who you are and what you are doing.

Number 6:

You have many rules and a rigid sense of right and wrong. You have the ability to help people, but you go overboard and try to control everyone, doing for them what they can do for themselves. Self-righteousness is another stumbling block for you – judging others, then giving advice (whether they want it or not) that will “fix” them and getting mad when they don’t follow it.

Learn to respect the opinions of others whether you agree with them or not. True service is helping people empower themselves to be who they are, not who you think they should be.

Number 7:

You are challenged to find the truth behind the illusion; get the facts instead of assuming. When you are discontented with what’s going on around you, you complain and criticize instead of helping to find solutions. You tend to be moody, withdrawn, and depressed when things don’t go your way. You try to present a false image of yourself that you think others will admire. This cuts you off from yourself and others, and you feel empty inside.

Learn to have faith in yourself and focus on your positive qualities. Look within for answers and allow your intuition to blossom. Make time alone each day to quiet the static in your mind. Irritability and depression can be aggravated by poor nutrition, so take good care of yourself. Get out in nature and let her soothe your soul. Be honest with yourself and keep your feet on the ground.

Number 8:

As in number 4, there are two extremes to this challenge. You may recognize both in yourself. It is the challenge of the balance of power. You need to learn the material and spiritual sides of power and money and bring them into balance.

Even if you are financially well off, you lack confidence in yourself. No matter how much money, power, or material possessions you have, it is not enough. You tend to judge yourself and others by the number of toys you/they have; the more you have, the better you are. You are constantly in competition with others to prove your superiority.

On the other hand, you may lack financial security because you avoid handling money and material matters due to poor judgment and lack of confidence. You need to learn to manage your personal and business affairs effectively. Develop the qualities of organization, good judgment, leadership, and thoroughness. Delegate opportunity, not responsibility, and learn the difference between the two.

The number 9 does not appear as a challenge.

There are two secrets contained in your Challenges. One is that they are the choices you have made in your infinite wisdom to help you become master of your life. The other is that there is nothing wrong with you. Good news! You have the opportunity of seeing your Challenges as the mother lode of information that can set you free.

As painful and difficult as they may be, if you face your Challenges and resolve them you will experience more peace and freedom in your life with each lesson. They are part of the curriculum you have created for learning how to live the life you dream of. Congratulations!

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You Are More Than You Think You Are

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Your Cycles – Past, Present, and Future

I was 25 years old and my life was about to change radically; from the predictability of typical young married life to a whirlwind of often chaotic activity over a nine-year period.

My husband was in graduate school when I became pregnant. When our baby was 8 months old, we moved more than 1,000 miles to his first job. Three years later we moved again more than 500 miles to his second job. Less than a year later we were on our way back, more than 600 miles, to my parents’ home where my mother had suffered a life-threatening illness.

At this time, my husband and I separated, I took care of my mother as she recovered, became a student of metaphysics, got a divorce, became a single mother, and entered the work force. I had experienced an about-face.

What was happening, unbeknownst to me, was my second Pinnacle, the number 5, the number of freedom and change, letting go of the old and making way for the new.

How many times have you wished you had a crystal ball? I certainly could have used one then. How reassuring it would have been to know these occurrences were  natural elements of my life purpose.

Today we’ll be talking about what’s happening behind the scenes in your life; the deeper meaning of your experiences.

There are many familiar cycles that influence our lives; the seven-year cycles of the stages of maturity; the time-telling cycles of 365 days, twelve months, thirty days, seven days, twenty-four hours; and the cycles of the planets as they travel across the sky. We live in these cycles automatically and move through them without thinking about them. They are an integral part of life.

Numerology cycles represent experiences that you move through at specific times during your life. Your cycles present opportunities for learning to master life. They enhance your core qualities and stretch your abilities. They are automatic, and when you are aware of them you can take full advantage of the experiences they provide.

Understanding your cycles enables you to navigate the highs and lows of life with more confidence, realizing that everything is unfolding for your good.

If you are going through a time when nothing seems to be working for you, feeling as if you are swimming upstream and getting nowhere, chances are you are resisting the influence a numerology cycle.

Our numerology cycles vary in length from one month to several years. The day we are born we are under the influence of three long cycles at once, and two shorter ones. This idea may seem confusing and overwhelming, but our cycles mesh together seamlessly to provide an environment in which we can thrive.

There are four numerology cycles, called Pinnacles, Challenges, Personal Years, and Personal Months. There is one more I call Unfinished Business, which represents an uncompleted cycle from the past.

Each of us has four Pinnacles, whose influences occur in sequence, 1, 2, 3, and 4 over the course of our lives. The number and duration of each Pinnacle are calculated from your birth date.

Pinnacles represent experiences that strengthen you and exercise your talents. My first Pinnacle was 1, which gave me opportunities to be independent. I also experienced resistance and frustration, since grownups didn’t appreciate independence in children back in the day. If my parents had known about numerology they could have been more nurturing and supportive of my independence.

I loved discovering and exploring new things and ideas, another aspect of the number 1 Pinnacle. It provided the perfect environment for exploration of psychic phenomena as I grew older, an interest which set me apart from my family and most of my friends.

I had many unique experiences during that period. Sometimes I felt like a fish out of water because of my unconventional outlook in general, but I learned from numerology years later that my experiences were preparing me to trust myself in spite of what others may think. I felt excited and validated the first time I looked at my Chaldean Soul Chart and understood what was happening in my past.

Will you recognize your Pinnacles in the interpretations below? What seems to be a prominent theme in your life right now?

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Interpretations

Number 1:

This is the time of pioneering new territory, exercising leadership, and exploring and developing new ideas. You must take action and use initiative to be successful. Experiences that help you develop independence, individualism, originality, and courage will be presented to you. You will need to stand on your own two feet and rely on yourself to get things done.

Down side: bossiness, obstinacy, and self-criticism.

Number 2:

This is a time for working with others. Detail work, healing, counseling, cooperation, diplomacy, and partnerships are emphasized, as are networking and establishing harmonious relationships. Engagement or marriage are possible. Music and other artistic activities are good outlets for you. Psychic sensitivity is strong now, as well. You achieve a great deal by having patience with yourself and others.

Down side: lack of self-confidence, too dependent on others, pleasing others at your expense, taking things personally.

Number 3:

Self expression is your path to success now. You are focused on the lighter side of life, entertaining and being entertained. Express your feelings and thoughts genuinely – you will be given many opportunities. Writing, pubic speaking, acting, stage/movie production, visual arts, dancing, singing, and design are possible. Share the joy you will be experiencing.

Down side: fingers in too many pies, too much activity, losing your direction, tendencies to be over emotional and self-centered.

Number 4:

This is a period of building, attending to detail, working hard and enjoying it, taking pride in your work, being part of a team, following directions, establishing schedules, practicing discipline, taking your time and being thorough. It is prudent to save your money and build a financial foundation. You are getting all your ducks in a row, preparing for success in the future.

Down side: stubborn, rebellious, lazy, perfectionist, no fun.

Number 5:

This is a period of freedom and change; of letting go of the old and making way for the new. There will be much activity, different situations, different types of people, and new opportunities. This is a time for developing your qualities of versatility and adventure. It could be the beginning of a new phase in your life or a change in direction, a time of advancement and progress. Money could fluctuate up and down.

Down side: feelings of restlessness and uncertainty at times; impulsiveness and excess.

Number 6:

Your attention is on home, family, and community now. You may be addressing adjustments and changes at home. It is a good time to get married if you are in a loving relationship. Service to community it a rewarding possibility. You create prosperity now by settling down and embracing responsibility.

Down side: your crabby criticizing will tell you when you are doing too much for others and not enough for yourself.

Number 7:

You are drawn to introspection during this cycle. It is a time for spiritual housecleaning; looking inside, taking stock, renewing your spirit, and making any adjustments necessary to restore your inner balance and expand your mind. You may want to delve into religion, philosophy, meditation, and enjoy nature. It’s a good time to go back to school, begin higher education, and refine your knowledge to become an expert in your field.

Down side: moodiness, complaining, and feeling restricted or isolated. Be patient and share with loved ones and friends who are probably wondering what’s going on with you.

Number 8:

This is a cycle of power and material and financial growth. You must take action to see results. Your focus is on business, finances, big projects, accomplishing goals, and leadership. You could receive a promotion (more responsibility) at work. Profits could increase if you own your own business. You will attract opportunities to develop your executive ability. Stay focused and maintain your values to accomplish your goals. Demonstrate efficiency, dependability, determination, strength, good management, good judgment, and diplomacy. Persevere, be uncompromising, thorough, and exacting.

Down side: trying to drive that bulldozer over anything and anyone who gets in your way; judging yourself and others by how many toys you/they have.

Number 9:

This is a cycle of completion. It could be an emotional time because it is a time of endings. It is preparation for new beginnings. You could be ending a job, a relationship, or a way of life that will prepare you for moving on. Learning to love unconditionally is a key now and will attract unconditional love to you. You will have opportunity to be of service to many. Be willing to help in any way you can, and enjoy good times with friends and loved ones.

Down side: unhappiness if you lack understanding of true love. Nine is the vibration of unconditional love, and demands a great deal of anyone who chooses it. Learn to appreciate yourself and others unconditionally, and you will attract the love of others.

Number 11/2:

This is a cycle of spiritual expansion, inspiration, idealism, and individuality. It is a time of high energy, inspirational ideas, and enjoyment of the beauty in life. It could involve fame, leadership, and being in the spotlight. Activities that uplift and empower others will fulfill you. Follow your hunches and trust your inner awareness, for you will have heightened sensitivity now. Focus on exciting activities that uplift the spirit. You’ll have a lot of fun.

Down side: impatience, hastiness, arrogance. Ideals are great because they keep you focused, but don’t let them become more important than people. If you feel nervous or anxious, chances are you are spending too much time dreaming and not enough time acting on your dreams. Get up off that couch and get going. The world is waiting.

Number 22/4:

This is the time to use your talents and experience to make your dream a reality – to unite the spiritual and material. You have opportunities to organize, plan, lead, and accomplish projects that serve large numbers of people, focused on improving conditions on a community, national, or international scale.

Down side: arrogance and perfectionism. Avoid big schemes for fast money.

Number 33/6:

This cycle offers experiences that expand your loving nature. Focus on the good in everyone, see through so-called imperfections and nurture the loving presence in everyone. People come to you for help because they trust you. You will be taking care of others. Take care of yourself as well by doing things that soothe and amuse you and restore your serenity. People love to come to your parties. Nurture your creativity and your appreciation of beauty.

Down side: becoming too involved in the problems of others. Your opportunity is to help others, not to live their lives. Everyone has inner guidance; let them use it.

Knowing your cycles can help you understand your past experiences, get the most out of your present life, and give you a preview of your future. Here are some more experiences I’ve had, just to give you a sense of how your Pinnacles flow. Keep in mind, I didn’t know about numerology for many years. When I discovered Chaldean numerology, I was amazed at how closely my life had followed my cycles.

My third Pinnacle was 6 and lasted nine years. It was during this cycle that I became a teacher, lecturer, and counselor in personal development. I traveled around the Eastern and Mid-western U.S. for two years lecturing and teaching and then opened a private practice where I taught locally. I had family challenges, too, during this time. It was during this cycle that I discovered Chaldean numerology.

Looking into my future, I saw that my final Pinnacle, which lasts till the end of life, was 7. It was a mystery to me how this one would manifest itself. But, typically of 7, opportunities opened up for me to go back to school. I earned certification as a Crystal Healing facilitator, a Transformational Breath facilitator, and received my Master’s degree in Applied Psychology, fulfilling a dream I’d had for many years.

I was saturated in learning, my talents stretched to the max, and happy as a clam.
I was at last able to address both the spiritual and psychological aspects of the psyche in my private practice. I designed the Chaldean Soul Chart then, too. I became a writer, something I had never imagined, and have several research projects going in numerology. I am always seeking knowledge about what makes us tick, and there are more books coming.

I hope you’ve found some useful information about what’s happening behind the scenes in your life and have gained insight into your brilliantly planned experiences.

Next time, Challenges; the secret behind those scary fears that psychology calls mental blocks and emotional issues.

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Your Inner Desire

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Your Spiritual Core – Your Inner Desire

Your Inner Desire number represents your motivation, the inner you, your heart’s desire, what you want more than anything else, and it is fueled by your feelings. I think of it as your ultimate comfort zone. When you are acting from your Inner Desire, you feel a deep sense of security and excitement at the same time. Your world is in harmony and you feel a self-confident sense of belonging.

Interestingly, this is the only part of yourself that you can hide from the world. If you are afraid of what others may think or if you are living someone else’s version of your life, you will keep your Inner Desire bottled up in order to be accepted. If this is you, you can use this as a golden opportunity to start building self-confidence and living a more authentic life by allowing the expression of your Inner Desire.

Here’s how one person found a way to express his Inner Desire number. All his core numbers, except one, represented conservative qualities of responsibility, hard work, consistency, and single-mindedness in achieving his goals. The one exception to these qualities was his Inner Desire number, which was 5. The five in his life gave him the desire for freedom, adventure, change, and risk-taking. His heart’s desire seemed out of alignment with his life and the expectations others had of him.

He found an outlet for this complete contrast in his makeup by driving a sports car and having a career in which he enjoyed enough freedom within the structure of his industry that he was able to maintain his responsibilities without feeling unduly restricted. His ultimate goal was to retire before the age of 50, and his self-discipline enabled him to express his Inner Desire in ways that served his ultimate goal. Once he achieved this goal, his intention was to have even more freedom and adventure in his life by making a second career out of his hobby and taking adventure vacations with his family.

The key to a fulfilling life is being who you truly are deep down in your soul. Numerology helps you discover the message your true Self is carrying for you and guides you on your way to living that message.

Your true Self cannot be suppressed. When it is not expressed consciously, it will emerge negatively in relationship problems, money problems, and health problems. This is the Real You insisting on being recognized. By allowing your true Self to unfold, you are automatically living your Life Purpose.

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Number 1:

You want independence; you like action and accomplishment; and you want to be unique, creative, not one of the crowd. You would rather work alone, but if you must work with others, you want to be in charge. You like to start things, but often get bored before you finish them.

Down side: you can be impatient, bossy, arrogant, conceited, critical, selfish, and outspoken. You tend to put pressure on yourself by holding yourself to impossible standards. You will be more successful if you learn to be diplomatic and tactful.

Number 2:

You are thoughtful, loving, devoted, and loyal; you love the comfort of a nice, soft chair and camaraderie with friends and loved ones. You want peace and harmony more than anything. You are sensitive to the feelings of others and have psychic ability, especially when it comes to knowing how people really feel. You would rather be in the background than at the head of the line. You are contented with the little things and don’t need ambitious dreams to motivate you.

Down side: you tend to let people run over you because you crave peace at any price. You don’t let people know what you want because you think it might inconvenience or displease them. You can be overly emotional, taking everything personally.

Number 3:

You love to express yourself through speaking, writing, or acting. Your goal is to be happy, and you love to make other people happy. You are an optimist and, if you worry, it’s not for long. You are loving, outgoing, and affectionate. You love to entertain, to be entertained, and to have a lot of friends. You are creative, artistic, and you like to be surrounded by beauty.

Down side: you can be a drama king/queen. You are so versatile you can end up scattering your energy in all directions with your fingers in too many pies. Develop tolerance and patience.

Number 4:

Your greatest desire is for structure, steadiness, and routine. You are practical, analytical, reliable, orderly, and methodical. You are loyal and honest, and respect these qualities in others. You like details, and you like to work with your hands. You have self-discipline and are not afraid to discipline others.

Down side: you can be inflexible, stubborn, a perfectionist, impatient with those you perceive as undisciplined or disorganized. You can be narrow-minded, unwilling to change or try something new, even if it’s for the better.

Number 5:

Your greatest desire is for freedom. You like variety, adventure, travel, new places, and new faces. You are versatile, clever, witty, a good mixer. You dislike routine and are not a good candidate for a desk job. You are outgoing and magnetic.

Down side: You can be stubborn when you perceive others trying to limit your freedom.  You waste time by trying to prove you cannot be controlled. Remember, real freedom is living in alignment with your spirit. Excess of all kinds is another stumbling block for you.

Number 6: Your greatest desire is to have love, justice, and harmony in the world. Home, family, and community are vital to you. You are a loyal friend and a devoted family member. You love to counsel others, to advise and guide people through their troubles. You are happiest when someone is in trouble and you can open your door and your heart to them.

Down side: you tend to become emotionally involved in other people’s troubles, worrying about them and creating stress for yourself. You can be stubborn, interfering, and self righteous when it seems others are not taking your advice.

Number 7: You are curious and seek knowledge. You love mystery, and seek to understand the unknown, whether in the field of science or spirituality. You have an inner knowing that guides you through life. You can be quiet and reserved, but you are not conventional.

Down side: you can be high strung and hard to get along with because of your psychic
sensitivity. You are like a radio, broadcasting your energy outward and picking up static along with clear information. You need to allow time to be alone each day in order to recharge your batteries and quiet the static.

Number 8:

You love power, material possessions, and accomplishment. You are a born leader, and you thrive in the director’s chair. You like high quality and do not settle for second best. You have good judgment and a sense of fairness that allows you to get the most out of your employees/team members without seeming to boss them around. You keep your eye on the big picture and find others to take care of the details.

Down side: you can be a tyrant. Usually it’s because you are putting so much pressure on yourself you forget that you are working/living with actual people who can help you if you treat them nicely.

Number 9: Love for humanity drives you. You dream of helping mankind in a big way. You are the universal big sister or big brother; kind, understanding, compassionate, always willing to help. People are more important to you than anything.

Down side: You can be impractical and indecisive. Dreaming is a wonderful thing, but you need to put food on your table, too. You can get bogged down in self-pity when you discover some people don’t respond to the love you have for them.

Number 11/2:

You are inspired by the spiritual, but you are not religious; you love to explore the unseen. You are idealistic and see the world as full of beauty and infinite potential. You are a champion of the individual, and you long to inspire people to achieve their dreams. You have creative, unconventional ideas, and need to find ways to apply them in practical ways that serve humanity.

Down side: you tend to love ideals more than people. As you are able to cultivate unconditional love for yourself just as you are, you will cease judging others for their perceived failings. You can be stubborn, hasty, and domineering. Use diplomacy in communicating with others.

Number 22/4:

Your passion is to make dreams come true. You have high ideals, a great understanding of the spiritual and physical worlds, and have the practical know-how to manifest dreams on the physical plane. You love people, and you are a kind and patient leader.

Down side: your desire for perfection can alienate people. You are susceptible to the down side of the number 4. Have faith in yourself and your abilities.

Number 33/6:

Love and service drive you. You desire that everyone know how magnificent they are and how much they are loved by the Creator. You can see the good in everyone, no matter what others may say or think.

Down side: you tend to sacrifice yourself for others, creating trouble in your own life. Take time to give yourself the comfort you offer others.

Please keep in mind that these interpretations are brief in order to keep these posts as short as possible. My book, “You Were Born to Succeed,” goes into more detail.

Do you see yourself in any of these numbers? I’d love to have your comments.

Next time, Your Outer Life – how you look to others, the style of your life.

Caught in Traffic

 

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No, I’m not in NYC, but it sure feels like it around here. I’m caught up in Christmas prep (you know, shopping, trimming the tree, baking, etc.) and unable to keep up with blogging. I’m sure there are plenty of you out there who don’t have time to read blogs, either, so my next post in the series, “You Are More Than You Think You Are,” will appear during the first week of 2016.

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and Happy New Year to all. May this season bring you joy and wonderment.

Thanks so much for checking in to my blog.

XOXOXO

 

Your Calling

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You Are More Than You Think You Are

Your Spiritual Core – Your Calling, the Direction of Your Life

Last week’s post was about your Life Purpose number. This week we’ll look at your Life Direction number, the second number listed in the  Spiritual Core section of the Chaldean Soul Chart.

Your Direction number is placed in the second column of the Chaldean Soul Chart right underneath your Purpose number. It indicates the way in which you chose to express your purpose.

Your life purpose is funneled through the characteristics of your Direction number. For example, if you chose a life purpose of 3 and a Direction of 6, your purpose would be expressed differently than if you had chosen a 7 Direction number.

Your Direction number represents your soul’s calling, the most fulfilling career, job, or way of life for you – that which makes you feel excited, deeply contented, that this is where you belong. It can be a passion for something like being a parent, athletics, writing, dancing, entertaining, cars, administration, the list is endless.

Think about the thing that’s most fascinating to you. Is it your hobby, your career, is your life set up to express that right now? Or are you living your life according to someone else’s plan, hating your job, unhappy with your life, feeling empty inside?

Many people put aside their passions, unaware that their soul is calling to them; unaware that they can start now to bring their passions into their lives.

Is that you? Many have buried their passions so deeply they are unaware of them. If that’s you, this is the right time to start noticing what excites you, what wakes you up and fills your heart. Perhaps you’ll get a hint from the interpretations that follow.

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Interpretations

Number 1:

You are the pioneer, innovator, leader, inventor, willing to step boldly into the unknown to explore or invent new possibilities for all. Careers for you can be teacher, leader (in business or of a cause), inventor, promoter, research and development, designer, executive, explorer, sales manager, architect, artist, theatrical producer. Whatever you do, you will find new ways to do it. You feel confined by too many rules or rigid systems; you thrive in an environment where your individuality is appreciated.

Down side:

When out of balance, you can be aggressive, overbearing, impatient, egotistical, pushy, and arrogant. On the other extreme you can be dependent, lazy, stubborn, submissive, helpless, fearful, and unwilling to take a stand.

Number 2:

You are the diplomat, able to work successfully with the many different kinds of people who come to you for aid and advice. You are good at combining the ideas of others into something new. You are psychic, and your presence is healing to others. You thrive on working with others in cooperation, not competition. Careers for you can be diplomat, musician, counselor, clergy, child care, teacher, social worker, metaphysics, bookkeeper, negotiator, librarian, administrative assistant, politician, doctor, nurse, dancer, and artist. You love supporting people rather than being in the spotlight.

When out of balance, you can be indecisive, take things personally, retreat into the background, and become a doormat.

Number 3:

You are expressive, spiritual, creative, cheerful, sociable, artistic, talented, imaginative, and good-natured. You love hospitality and entertaining and are a natural entertainer with a pervasive sense of humor. Careers for you can be entertainer, speaker, writer, theater, hospitality industry, beautician, cosmetician, artist, craftsperson, critic, linguist, translator, clergy, and philosopher. Long hours in confined spaces can limit and frustrate your self-expression. You are impractical and need to team up with a practical person for success.

When out of balance, you can be flighty, have your fingers in too many pies, and be critical, impatient, intolerant, extravagant, wasteful, and shallow.

Number 4:

You are a builder. Four creates form and order out of chaos. You characterize stability and dependability, you are four-square, and you appreciate law, system, and order. What can be work for others is play for you. Careers for you can be any of the building trades, dentist, computer technician, engineer, accountant, farmer, lawyer, banker, financial advisor, analyst, manufacturer, proofreader, watch repair, furniture restoration, antique auto restoration, vocational and technical teacher.

When out of balance, you can be stubborn, too serious, plodding, gloomy, blunt, and outspoken.

Number 5:

You thrive on action and require freedom, travel, change, adventure, and variety. You easily work with many different kinds of people from all walks of life in a variety of situations. Careers for you can be sales, advertising director, detective, investigator, secret service, reporter, columnist, sports, travel industry, tour guide, booking agent, broker, publisher, actor, entertainer, explorer, writer, speaker, shipping/sailor, import-export, cab driver, hospitality industry, messenger, and courier.

When out of balance, you can be sneaky, hyperactive, fidgety, deceitful, talk too much, indecisive, and hypocritical.

Number 6:

You have a talent for bringing people together and getting them to function in harmony with each other. You love family and community and enjoy helping others. You project a sense of self-confidence, reliability, maturity, and responsibility. Careers for you can be interior designer, community activist, teacher, host/hostess, homemaker, tutor, writer, theater, family/marriage counselor, mediator, hotel manager, governess, day care worker, nurse, doctor, hospital technician, student advisor, artist, musician, singer, beautician, fashion designer, perfumer, herbalist, and chemist.

When out of balance, you can be a perfectionist, controlling, self-sacrificing, a martyr, a worrier, or fear being taken advantage of.

Number 7:

You can see the potential in every situation. You are a truth seeker. You have an inner knowing that keeps you on top of what’s happening and are rarely surprised. You don’t like manual labor and do best in an environment where you can use your mind to creatively explore the unknown. Careers for you can be futurist, making sales/marketing projections, spotting/tracking trends, setting trends, an expert in your field, science, spirituality, religion, teacher in higher education, scholarly pursuits, archeologist, astrologer, researcher, investigator, author, museum curator, historian, forester, gardener, analyst, designer, and architect.

When out of balance, you can be irritable as a result of information overload, a know-it-all, negating the opinions of others, have a superior attitude, and a loner.

Number 8:

You are a born leader, possess good judgment, and the ability to organize, manage, and get things done. You have a talent for breaking things down into simple steps and delegating processes to accomplish your goals. You are a powerful person of action who achieves tangible results. Fairness is of primary importance to you. You prefer to manage the big picture, leaving the details to others. Careers for you can be supervisor, organizer, manufacturer, industrialist, banker, real estate, commodities trader, negotiator, CEO or other corporate officer, business analyst, school superintendent, head of the department, the boss.

When out of balance, you can be a steamroller, over-competitive, accomplish through intimidation, a workaholic, always want more, there is never enough.

Number 9:

You are a humanitarian and an idealist. You are deeply compassionate, and you love everyone. People are attracted to you like bees to honey. You are passionate and sensuous. You are psychic, independent, strong-willed, and determined. Your deepest desire is to be of service to humanity.

Careers for you can be researcher, doctor, surgeon, metaphysical investigator, healer, reporter, counselor, artist, explorer, scientist, philanthropist, reformer, foreign service, politician, designer, speaker, crusader, media personality, and advisor.

When out of balance, you can feel unloved, blame yourself for everything, become timid, moody, indecisive, intolerant of interference, resent criticism, and have a high opinion of yourself.

Number 11/2:

This is the master number of illumination. Your focus is on the individual rather than humanity as a whole. You are a dreamer, an idealist, intuitive, inspirational, resilient, and capable of shouldering a great deal of responsibility. You have the qualities of both the 1 and the 2. You learn by experience and teach by example. You are inspired by the lives of others and seek to mirror the qualities you admire in them. You are a mystic, an unconventional thinker, and your inspirations make you a teacher of new ways.

Careers for you can be inspirational speaker, writer, teacher, promoter, leader of an inspirational enterprise, pilot, astronaut, space industry, advanced electrical work/ research, space age electronics, metaphysical research/practice, psychologist, actor, musician, philosopher, beauty specialist, novelist, and inventor.

When out of balance, you revert to the down side of the number 2. You are impractical, so it’s wise to team up with practical people who can help you implement your dreams. When your head is in the clouds, make sure your feet are on the ground.

Number 22/4:

You are the master builder. You dream big, and you have the power to carry out your plans to achieve your goals. You are a tower of strength and understanding. Your skill and intuition inspire people to depend upon you and trust your guidance. You have the qualities of both 2 and 4.

Careers for you can be ambassador, diplomat, international officer or representative, executive, mediator, adjustor, computer guru, government agent, librarian in a national/ government/museum library, school superintendent, archivist, analyst, economist, military officer, public works and utilities, general contractor, appraiser, inspector, import-export business, shipping, athletics.

When out of balance, you revert to the down side of the number 4. You become a perfectionist, have a big ego, are boastful, indifferent, and can be destructive.

Number 33/6:

You are the master communicator, the consummate entertainer. Everyone wants to be invited to your parties. There is also a quiet, dignified side to you that comes from your innate ability to create balance and harmony wherever you go. You are a healer, and you have a deep sense of spirit. You have a great deal of compassion for people and are happy to be of service wherever you are. You have the qualities of both 3 and 6.

Careers for you can be teacher, Bible authority, social worker, welfare worker, writer, novelist, artist, musician, dancer, actor, psychologist, image maker, doctor, nurse, metaphysician, intuitive counselor, clergy, human resources director, networker, ambassador, representative of a humanitarian company or enterprise.

When out of balance, you tend to take over the roles of others with the idea that you can do it better. A judgmental/perfectionist attitude can make you demanding, critical, argumentative, and your life very stressful. Learn to receive as well as give.

Not all people with master numbers respond to the call of great mission. Some are satisfied to be fulfilled as the single-digit expression of their master number. Even when they do respond to their deeper calling, they sometimes retreat to their single-digit expression to take a break from the intensity a master number can bring.

So, did you find yourself in this article? I’d love to have your comments or questions. Next time, what motivates you.

You Are More than You Think You Are

Beginning a new series of articles about you – an adventure into your soul using the ancient science of Chaldean numerology to help you see the magnificence of who you really are.

This is a pretty long post, but I couldn’t figure out how to make it shorter. If you hang in there until the end I think you’ll be glad you did .

My experience as someone who was stumbling through a life that didn’t fulfill me and eventually as a spiritual teacher, counselor, and soul-centered psychotherapist has taught me that we humans are much more than we think we are. We have wisdom beyond our imaginings and the power to create the lives we’ve always wanted. We are here to wake up to our own wisdom and to the limitless possibilities we have before us.

We are here to be happy – not at the expense of others, but as a consequence of the unfoldment of our innate wisdom and talents. We were truly born to succeed by paying attention to our inner nature – by following those inner promptings that lead us to act on the talents we possess. This is true success – from the inside out.

My passion concerns the invisible part of us, our feelings and thoughts, our inner awareness, why we are here and where we came from. Many years ago, I began to investigate esoteric sciences, psychology, and mysticism to find answers. As I progressed in my search, my life changed. I found myself on a path of discovery that excited me. I was waking up and getting happy.

In these weekly articles, I’m going to share how Chaldean numerology helped me change my life. I hope you will find value in my experiences. I want you to experience fulfillment and happiness from the inside out. I want you to discover the brilliance of your innate wisdom and learn to trust that you know what’s best for you.

If there’s something in these articles that’s too far out for you to embrace, just skip it and move on. Everyone’s path to inner wisdom is different, so choose what makes sense to you and leave the rest.

Some Ideas that Make Sense to Me

You are a soul with a physical body – not a body with a soul. You are a spiritual being in a physical world, here to experience life as a fulfilling adventure. The inner you and outer you are irrevocably connected. Your outer life is a reflection of your inner consciousness. You are perfect as you are, even with your so-called faults.

You chose to be here at this very time in the very place you are right now, in the very conditions you are experiencing right now, whether you love, or not, your present circumstances. This is a tricky concept because we tend to automatically make ourselves wrong or blame others for the so-called bad in our lives. But what if you are infinitely wiser and more powerful than you have ever imagined? What if you chose the stuff you don’t like to teach you something about yourself?

When you go walking along a beautiful path in the woods and come upon an obstacle, maybe an overhanging bush or some tangled brush, do you blame the path for putting it in your way? Probably not. You find a way around it or cut the brush back and continue on. We all have challenges. If we learn to see them as opportunities to strengthen ourselves, doors of mastery we never imagined open for us.

Who Are You?

You are a powerful and deliberate co-creator with Spirit. You have created everything in your life in service to your spiritual growth. By going toward that which fascinates you, ignites your passions, and makes you happy, you are growing, getting happier, and automatically being of service to everyone around you. By finding ways to resolve your challenges, you are automatically creating opportunities of mastership for yourself and everyone around you.

Science is discovering that you did not come into this life as a blank slate. As an infinite being, you were born with all the wisdom you have gained through lifetimes of experience. You have co-created with Spirit the perfect plan for your life. You already know your life plan, but have forgotten all or part of it.

My Profound Experience

During my search for answers, I was drawn to study numerology and discovered the ancient esoteric science called Chaldean numerology. Its origins are traced all the way back to the beginning of civilization. I tested it on myself and many others against other numerology systems and found that my subjects and I resonated most to the Chaldean system. We felt it not only described us more accurately, but it clicked inside us like a key opening a door. I remember when I had that profound and powerful experience – I felt my life open up; I felt so comforted and reassured that I cried.

I discovered that Chaldean numerology reveals the life plan we have forgotten. I got so excited about it I included it in my psychotherapy practice. I developed what I call the Chaldean Soul Chart. It reveals the deep wisdom of your brilliant, best Self. It reveals the spiritual anatomy of your life – what you came to do, how you chose to do it, your past, present, and future, your strengths, talents, challenges, and any unfinished business you may have.

Here’s what it looks like.

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During the next few weeks, I’ll fill out the chart step by step, showing you a fictional Chaldean Soul Profile to give you a peek at what you can learn about yourself.

As you can see, in each section of the chart there is a space for a number. Each number has a meaning that reveals your inner and outer qualities. All the numbers combined reveal the life you have chosen to live.

Next week we’ll begin our journey through the chart. You may want to make a copy of it so you can follow along in the coming weeks. See you then, and congratulations for hanging in there.

Personal Years – Your Future Revealed

An important part of your Chaldean Soul Chart is the Personal Years section, showing you a 9-year cycle. This section is part of the Cycles section of your chart, and provides a look into your future, year by year. In this post, I’m going to show you how to calculate your personal years, and I’ll share some of my experiences with personal years.

This is a pretty long article, but it’s because of two things; the directions on how to calculate your personal years, and the interpretations of the numbers. So hang in there. It’ll go fast.

Our Personal Year numbers reveal our future in the form of trends that will dominate during their influence. Your personal years flow as naturally as breathing, and bring you experiences that keep you on track with your life purpose.

When you resist the influence of your personal years, you experience feelings like frustration, you’re stuck, struggling, working hard trying to make things happen. It’s like trying to swim upstream against a powerful current.

Your personal year always begins on your birthday and ends on the day before your next birthday. You may sense your personal year influence moving in up to three months before your birthday. During this transition time, you might feel confusion, irritability, impatience or a lack of direction if you aren’t aware of what’s happening.

Calculating your personal year is easy. But there are some things you need to know before you start.

  • Use the calendar year to calculate your personal year (in numerology it’s called the Universal Year – this year it’s 2014).
  • If you were born between the months of January and June, use the current universal year to calculate your personal year.
  • If you were born between July and December, use the next universal year. For 2014, use 2015.

 Here’s how to calculate.

  1. Write down the number of the month you were born and reduce it to a single digit, if necessary.
  2. Write down the date you were born and reduce it to a single digit, if necessary.
  3. Add the sums of these two numbers together and reduce to a single digit, if necessary.
  4. Add the digits of the universal year together and reduce to a single digit, if necessary.
  5. Add the sums of steps 3 and 4 together and reduce to a single digit, if necessary. If this sum is a Master Number (11, 22, 33) do not reduce to a single digit.

 Example 1 for 2014: June 28

 June = 6

  1. 28 =  2 + 8 = 10 = 1 + 0 = 1
  2. 6 + 1 = 7
  3. 2 + 0 + 1 + 4 = 7
  4. 7 + 7 = 14 = 5, Personal Year number for June 28 in 2014

Example 2 for 2014: November 18

  1. November = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2
  2. 18 = 1 + 8 =  9
  3. 2 + 9 = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2
  4. 2 + 0 + 1 + 5 = 8
  5. 2 + 8 = 10 = 1 + 0 = 1, Personal Year number for November 18 in 2014

 If you calculate your personal years for a full 9-year cycle, you’ll see how the rhythm of personal years works. Each year prepares you for the next. Each year builds upon the experiences of the previous year. With each nine-year period, you gain more experience and develop more strength and wisdom if you follow the path your cycles indicate.

You can compare personal year cycles with your spouse, children, friends or co-workers. Understanding how your personal year cycles compare and contrast helps improve relationships. You can support each other on a deeper level knowing the influences that are present in the lives of your loved ones and the people you work with.

For more help in understanding how your cycles work, calculate the previous 9 years to see how they played out.

Here are the interpretations for each number. These interpretations are short because of space considerations. There is more detail in my book.

Number          Interpretation

       1                 The beginning of a new cycle, this will be a year of initiating; starting new projects, making new plans, meeting new people, taking the lead, following your own instincts and intuition.

       2                 This is a year for cooperation, partnerships, working in harmony with others, and creating peace within and without. Your feelings and psychic abilities are emphasized.

       3                This is a year for branching out; social activities, self expression, promotion, and creativity. It is a time to enjoy the lighter side of life;  entertaining, going out with friends, getting involved in the creative arts.

       4                This is a year for building, for creating routines and systems, for patiently attending to details, for creating a solid foundation that will serve you for years to come. It is a demanding year that requires self discipline.

       5                This is a period of change, freedom, movement, activity of almost any sort. It’s a time of adjusting to new things, a time of expansion, and a time of learning to let go. Changes are new opportunities for growth.

       6                Your attention will be on home, family, and health. There will be family responsibilities. There could be health issues. You may become more involved in your community. It’s a good year to get married.

       7                This is usually a quiet year, as the vibration is one of introspection, study, research, regrouping, and reevaluating. Allow developments to unfold for you rather than trying to force them. Allow time to be alone. Being out in nature will soothe and refresh you.

       8                This can be a dynamic year with lots of energy for dealing with material things and money. It is a good year for business success. Use good judgment, exercise your leadership, be efficient and practical, and think big.

       9                As the last year in the cycle, this is the year of endings. You could be ending relationships or a job, cleaning out your old stuff, or changing old attitudes and habits. You are letting go of things that no longer serve you.

    11/2             This is an illuminating, inspiring year full of high energy and deep sensitivity. It is a time of evaluating your motives and ethics. Your interests will be in metaphysical, spiritual, or scientific exploration.

    22/4             This is the year to put your ideas into action. Think big. Go after your dreams. Build something that serves mankind. This is not the year for purely personal goals.

    33/6             This is a year for unselfish service and communication. You will be involved in carrying out responsibilities and duties to friends, family, and community. Share the love – fun is important, and a good party is a source of happiness for everybody.

I’d like to share some of my experiences with you to give you a feel for the way personal years work. My personal year for 2012-13 was #6. Three big things happened that correspond to the #6 influence.

  •  I became a volunteer at our local arts center. I get to immerse myself in the art world, and I began to paint and draw again after being away from it for too many years.
  • I had the worst cold of my life. I couldn’t work for a month, and a friend pointed out that it was my work that was making me sick. Letting go of some limiting beliefs about work has helped me begin to transform my career. It has brought me the freedom to experiment and try new ideas.
  • I learned that a cherished family member has cancer. She is in a #9 personal year, the year of endings, a time for her to let go of people, things, and beliefs that are no longer serving her. It is a life-changing experience for everyone in our family, and we are supporting her for complete recovery.

Last June, I made the transition into a #7 personal year, a time of seeking truth and  looking inward. I am enjoying time alone – living in a cocoon and loving it. I’m developing research I began years ago, working on new ideas, improving my skills and re-evaluating my goals. This month, the universal year number, 2014, became the same as my personal year number, and I’m feeling the double influence.

 Whether we see our personal year experiences as good or bad, the most important thing is to use them all as opportunities for growth and loving support for ourselves and others.

Have your say! Do your numbers and let us know what you come up with. Questions? Just ask.

 Live your purpose, love your life!

Hidden Passion, Abandoned Dreams

This is the story, in three installments, of how I woke up to my life purpose. I tell it because many people have a similar story – of hiding their passion, of living someone else’s version of their life and suffering inwardly for it. I hope my story inspires readers to follow their heart – to learn from my experience – to stop denying who they are and discover the power that lies within.

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Some people come out of the womb knowing what their purpose in life is. They don’t even think about it. From wordless toddler hood they live and breathe their passion. But I didn’t have a clue about mine. I was worried by the time high school graduation rolled around. I thought by that time I should have a direction for the rest of my life.

 My up-bringing was no help (so I thought at the time). My sister and I were raised by an abusive mother, physically and mentally bullied into obedience, our self-expression smothered. Our father was the one who held the love in our family and, being the typical breadwinner of the 1950s when I grew up, didn’t have a clue what went on at home when he was at work.

 At that time, by graduation from high school boys were expected to know what they were going to do for the rest of their lives. Girls were supposed to get married and have babies, but I didn’t want to get married, much less have babies. When I made the mistake of mentioning this to my mother, she came back with, “You don’t know what you’re talking about.” I knew there was something more compelling for me, but I didn’t know what it was. I went to college and majored in Fine Arts, hoping for an answer.

 While I loved art work, I was enthralled by the mind; by what makes people tick. One of the most gripping books I read in my early teens was The Snake Pit, a novel about the use of shock treatments for mental illness in the 1940s and ‘50s, which I found both frightening and fascinating.

Even more fascinating to me were psychic phenomena. What was psychic awareness? Where did it come from? I wanted to be psychic. There wasn’t much information about psychic awareness or intuition back then, and the books I found were sensationalist, full of drama and dire warnings.

I was looking for something educational during a time when the subject was taboo. The closest I got to actual psychic phenomena was at high school sleepovers where my friends and I would use a Ouija board, conduct séances, or try to make a table tip, but nothing ever happened. According to what I learned years later, we were lucky.

My most heart-felt pursuits were not taken seriously. I was told I would never be able to make a living with art work. (Funny, I had never heard anyone say the same thing to a boy). And psychic studies were completely ridiculous. The only career open in that field was giving psychic readings in your living room, which would guarantee poverty and ruin your reputation, according to the values in my world. I think my parents paid for my college education believing I would eventually come to my senses and get married. They were right about one thing.

Even though my belief in myself was almost nil, I hoped that somehow I would succeed in life. Because of my interests, I felt like a fish out of water, a lost soul with no clue how to find her way. To compound my frustration, I eventually allowed myself to be talked out of pursuing my dreams and into getting married – a big mistake (except for the birth of my son), but I was a pleaser, and I was good at it.

 Next time, I get a wake-up call.